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| 05:53pm 10/09/2006 |
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i got my nose pierced!!
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| 07:06pm 05/09/2006 |
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sarah and amanda are coming this weekend and i'm excited. |
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| i miss u dad |
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| 03:35am 12/08/2006 |
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mood:  drained
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i never write in this thing anymore cuz i never feel like i have anything worth writing about, but i think i finally do. today my mom left a bunch of old pics of my dad on the dining room table. i'm pretty sure she was looking at them with an old friend of hers that flew in from venezuela.
there were pics of their wedding, family pics of them and my brother and i, then pics of me and my brother with my dad in the hospital. he was such a good man and i miss him so much so i guess i try to block him out...i didnt want to remember cuz it made me cry. i love him.
i kept looking through the pictures and i did cry, and i went to my brother and we cried together. we started to talk about him and all the great things he did for us, i felt like it brought me and my brother closer.
he would have and did do anything for us people always tell me that i was his everything, sometimes i feel like no1 will ever love me as much as he did, NO ONE. then my brother took out all the old pictures he had of my dad, more tears, but it was good for me. i shouldnt hold back how much i love and miss him. until today i even avoided talking about my dad cuz its hard and it happened so long ago. I tried to be strong when people ask me about him and what he was like, but today i finally came to the conclusion that its ok for me to remember him and cry, i shouldnt hold it back anymore no matter how much it hurts, i'm a part of him and im not gonna let myself hold it in anymore. im writing this entry through tears, but i needed this, i felt like because it happened so long ago i couldnt be sad about it, sometimes. almost like i wasnt allowed. but what people dont understand, psychologists, friends, everyone that you'll never forget or stop missing that person, and sometimes u need a day like i had today to just remember the person u lost and everything they did for u. |
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| 10:10pm 16/07/2006 |
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mood:  blah
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so i wanna get my nose pierced...what do u think?? |
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| 02:22am 22/03/2006 |
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mood:  worried
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ok so some of u kno i got a new room mate...she has her own room but anyway her room has been smelling lately...and all of us that have lived her didnt kno wtf it was or wut to do or say to her cuz she keeps to herself and is very quiet. but anyway we overheard her on the phone one time saying she thought she was pregnant..this will all come together in the end... and well one of my roomies kelle has heard her puking in her room..we thought it was the pregnancy morning sickness maybe? but yeah i just walked by the bathroom its 225 am and shes in the shower and i heard her heaving up a storm.. and now kelle just ran in and said shes throwing up... and now were thinking the stench in her room was probably her throwing up there so we wouldnt know and hiding it..i think shes bulimic..i kno wut its like having an eating disorder but i grew out of it i guess (in more senses than one) but anyway i dont know what to do im pretty positive shes bulimic..how do i say something or should i even do anything? HELP! |
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| 07:35pm 14/02/2006 |
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mood:  disappointed
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so valentines day confuses me... like i had this amazzziiingggg date.
danny and i got lazy moon and had a lovely picnic in the park and it was too cute. we laughed had a great time, but we have fun no matter what day it is. valentines day to me seems like a pointless holiday, if u really love someone u tell them everyday, i don't see the point for a holiday besides the fact of getting flowers and candy. which i got both lol danny got me flowers and adam got me candy...so it was nice
but the ending of the perfect day was dissapointing. ok so of course i loved spending valentines day with danny, but theres nothing there but friendship with him. but then i saw the person i wish i wouldve loved to be with on valentines day and he was leaving with all these girls...and i was really jealous and i felt my heart just sink. so it was a perfect date and then a sad ending. i guess thats life for u....a perfect time just cant be. something has to go and mess it up. |
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| 03:49am 13/02/2006 |
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mood:  tired
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does anyone still read this? lol who cares...
i went to PP this past weekend it was so good to see everyone i had a blast! so bak to reality...ahh |
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| 04:06pm 01/02/2006 |
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i got a 73 on my macro test =/ no me gusta.
im in statistics most boring lady EVER uyy i dont know why i bother coming...anyway there was this really random guy dancing with a black mask on his face and a flag that said nasty and he was crazy...me and a bunch of people were just standing there watching him, he even took off his shirt...i was studying outside and had my laptop and took a video with my webcam ill try n post it later it was hilarious. he had his little boom box and he was dancing around. ahh i love ucf
i bought 2 tongue rings today one is all bob marleyd and the other has a shamrock they make me talk funny but i dont care. anthony is so nice he came to class with me today and he doesnt have this class and hes getting pissed at out professor. its funny. this is random... |
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| sarah=perv |
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| 05:52am 23/01/2006 |
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sarahs a perv she posts nasty things on peoples myspace's! |
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| i wanna go home... |
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| 01:49am 24/12/2005 |
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mood:  sad
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ever since ive been here my mom has been mean to me....i wanna go back to orlando i didnt even do anything and she keeps like snapping at me. and this christmas sucks....were all so separated as a family..we didnt even get a tree i dont know whats going on i feel like my family is falling apart |
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| 02:07am 20/12/2005 |
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How many songs? 584
Sort by artist
First artist: 311
Last artist: Zion Y Lennox
Sort by song title:
First Song: 10 dollar-M.I.A
Last Song: Youth of the Nation-POD
Sort by time:
Shortest Song: Napolean Dynamite-Kip's I love technology 58 seconds
Longest Song: CraZy Hip Hop Rap, Booty, Bass, Reggae, R&B,Techno & Trance Mix 57:47 and i listened to the whooole thing
Sort by album:
First Album: 10 things I hate about you soundtrack
Last Album: Your stories, my alibies-Matchbook Romance
First song that comes up on Shuffle: Whenever Wherever-Shakira
Most recently added song: Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades-Brand New
How many songs come up when you search for "sex"? none
How many songs come up when you search for "death"? 4
How many songs come up when you search for "love"? 19
How many songs come up when you search for "you"? 79
How many songs come up when you search for "why"? none
Most frequently played song: dead automatica-beating hearts baby
Sort by song title. Name the first song for each letter of the alphabet:
A: Adam's song-blink 182
B: bag lady-erika badeu
C: california-phantom planet
D: dale don dale-don omar
E: eat you alive-limp bizkit
F: fade-staind
G: Galang- M.I.A yeahyhhh amanda
H: Hailie's song-eminem
I: I feel so-box car racer
J: Jaded-Aerosmith
K: Karma-Alicia Keyes
L: La camisa negra-Juanes
M: Macarena-Los del Rio
N: Nar-Hakim
O: Oh wee-master p
P: papercut-linkin park
Q: none
R: Radio/Video- System of a Down
S: Sadie Hawkins Dance-Relient K
T: Tainted Love-Marilyn Manson
U: Ugly Girl- Fiona Apple
V: Ven Bailalo-Khriz y Angel
W: Wake up-Hillary Duff (embarassing)
X: none
Y: Yakity Yak-The coasters
Z: Zephyr Song-RHCP |
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| 01:55am 20/12/2005 |
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today we did our secret santa gifts at on the border and i cant believe how good they got me....carly told me she had sarah and angela blurted she had amanda and i knew i had angela so i was like sarah has to be the one who has me but it turns out carly just said that and carly was the one who had me she got me the cutest gift ever THANKS CARLY!!
soooo yeah recently things were broken off with a certain guy...i dont really kno how to feel about the whole situation...i didnt really like him so much i guess it was just kind of nice to have someone to talk to and tell u they like u n blah blah it was nice...but im sort of numb to it now it was kinda messed up but i wont go into detail...i feel weird like i should be so pissed off but its like im not or maybe im too used to this stuff happening? eh whatever
a friend carlos called me the other day randomly cuz he heard i was town and wants me to go to church with him...i think i should go..i feel kinda empty and im hoping itll fill some of the void. i really need to go to church i havent gone in so long but its like i havent gone so it feels like im a trader for going back.
i also decided im turning over a new leaf...i wanna do a lot better in school and wanna be a better person overall...i guess thats kinda my new year's resolution and y im returning to church and so on... |
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| 01:34pm 08/12/2005 |
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all my room mates were in the common room knitting and watching anastasia, which is normal to me and i was in my room online as usual...kat came over and she was all like u have the weirdest room mates EVER i never realized but now i do lol theyre all knitting in the common room now too....just thought thatd make some of u laugh hehe |
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| 02:39pm 18/11/2005 |
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oh and i saw harry potter last night |
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| 02:38pm 18/11/2005 |
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i'm probably coming home next year... |
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| 03:15pm 09/11/2005 |
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i just bought a prada bag! i love it, it was worth every penny. i couldnt help myself...rachel bought a coach one and we just splurged and i got the prada ahh its so nice ill post some pics of it i cant believe i spent so much money on a purse
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| 07:26pm 07/11/2005 |
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mood:  pissed off
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i got a parking ticket!!! ahh! |
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| ME WANT COOKIE |
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| 02:55am 07/11/2005 |
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mood:  i want a cookie
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im excited for thanksgiving i dont know if its more for the food or the people
oh my room mates gave me a nick name cookie monster a while ago cuz i LOVE cookies and today we got in an argument cuz they kinda boss me around and i never say anything but today i did and they got me oreos and stuck them under the door and were like its a peace offering it was cute/funny
and we went to steak and shake and i have a COOKIE DOUGH shake of course and they kept trying to hook me up with the waiter cuz he had a tongue ring and he smoked they were like ahh hes perfect for pam it was funny he was hot... |
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| 02:12pm 04/11/2005 |
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mood:  sore
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omg yo im so sore i went to the gym last night and i did the rowing machine and then ran a mile and did abs and legs ::dies:: |
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| HAPPY BDAY AMANDA!! |
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| 07:45pm 03/11/2005 |
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i wish i could be at amandas bday with everyone I MISS EVERYBODY SO MUCH! it sucks to know all ur friends r together but u cant be there with them...i wish i coulda been there amanda and everyone else i miss u! |
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